living on my own

Since I last posted I have moved into my own place. I am, for the first time, living independently. I guess I am not living on my own perse. Actually will never live alone. Thats an odd thing to think about. I know so many people who just live alone and they think it is so much fun, but really it doesnt seem that fun. Right now I am living with two guys, I only ever see one. Matt and Cody are their names. It feels alot like I am in school actually. In school I lived with two other guys in a dorm. Now I am doing the same. my aprtmen is only bigger than a dorm becaus eof the kitchen and shower. So to me nothing has really changed except the people and the location. What's great about living "on my own" is that I have my own place. I have aplace to call home. The last few weeks of school and two weeks after school I didnt feel like I really had a home. I even went back to kentucky but that didn't really feel a whole lot like home. I mean my family was there but after things that have happened it was kind of odd and it seemed that I was walking on eggshells. I guess there is just somehting about having a place to call home that just bring security. I think, most people are just looking for security. That is why so many people love money. We see money as a security blanket and so we can just hold on to it and it will save us from all our troubles. I know I used to feel this way. I was a business school student becasue I thought I knew how to take care of myself better than God. What I hadto realize is that I cannot find my security in anything other than God. God is my security even if I have a home. My home is not actually my security. It is amazing to me that God will give people so much stuff and yet they never even recognize that he is the one giving it to them. All of our security is in Him and we dont even realize that. I wish more people would realize the how great the provision of God is. Like now, I have internet in my apartment some how and I havent had internet for two weeks. God has provided for me in more ways than I could have ever imagined. I am thankful but no where close to how thankful I should be.