First, My parents have decied to come to my wedding and we are speaking again. I have been waiting for this to happen for the past 6 months and now my wedding is a week away. I think I knew all along that they would change their mind. It took some interesting events and some convincing though. Thanks to my wonderful fiance Lisa. She and I kind of ambushed my mom so that we coudl talk through all the problems. My mom changed her mom once I told her that the reason I wanted to get married was that I love Lisa and that I almost lost ehr last year. You see, Lisa has had a lot of health complications. Last summer I thought she was going to die. Something you learn when someone close to you almost dies is how much you really care for them, how much you actually love that person. I have seen this is some of my friends relationships as well. I thought that this could be something that only I had seen. But Lisa said the same thing to one of our friends. I was never so sure that I loved some one as when I realized that Lisa could die. Coming to terms with that was one of the scariest things I ever had to do. Some days I would just cry because it was too much to deal with. I could not do anything about it, and that was the worst part. All the fears I had formed of death and being alone, something I amd sorting through in my book, came flooding back. I knew this was the girl and at any moment I could lose her and that was awful. Then people starting saying things like "if you have more faith then..." When in actuallity sometimes God gives us a thron in the flesh (2 Corinthians 12:7). So it makes not sense to blame the person who is suffering because this basically puts you on the same plane as Job's friends (just go read Job). Job is told at the end of the book that God does what he wants. Anyway that is not the point of this first section. the first thing I wanted to say was that my parents are coming to my wedding.
Second, my wedding is only 8 days a way. this is getting intense. My parents seem to think they can still talk me out of it but they cant. My mind is made up and this is going to be fun.
Third, I am a line cook now. I love cooking so my job is actually a ton of fun. I love what I do and that makes it worth while.
Fourth, I have thought two tatoos I want. One will be on my back and is 2 Corinthians 6:8-13 ish (I say ish because I dont want verse 12 but that does nto affect the meaning). the second is two full sleeves. The center is the battle of armeggedon, where Jesus destroys satan and all of his armies. Jesus is on a horse and the devil is a dragon, this is on either side of my chest. then death and hades are following satand and the armies of God are behind Jesus on horses, this is shoulders. then down one arm demons are climbing and running toward the middle. On the other side there are the saints and all of God's people rising to go to battle. the picture for death and hades is below and is by Gustave Dore.
Fifth, I have learned more about God this summer than I thought I would. Mostly about how much I have fallen short of His glory and how much I need Him. God's grace is far greater than any one can ever grasp. no one on earth can ever tell you how great of a gift we have been given in Christ or how great a debt has been paid. I think I could have never repaid one sin with my own works but through Christ's work on the cross and his resurrection I have all of my debts repaid. I am being made new all the time.
this is 2 corinthians 6:8b-11&13
We are treated as impostors, and yet are true;
as unknown, and yet well known;
as dying, and behold, we live;
as punished, and yet not killed;
as sorrowful, yet always rejoicing;
as poor, yet making many rich;
as having nothing, yet possessing everything.
We have spoken freely to you... ...our heart is wide open.
In return... ...widen your hearts also.
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